By Natalie H., Heart’s Home Volunteer in Thailand
“After hitting a suicidal low last week with things having exploded in her abusive and drug-ridden home, a close teenage friend from our neighborhood asked if she could stay with us until the end of the month as she tries to get her life on track (i.e. find a place to live and a job to support herself). We agreed, as long as she agreed to follow our schedule and be a contributing member of our community— not just use our house as a free place to crash. She surprisingly consented and even more surprisingly told us she knows she has a lot to learn and wants to be taught. A few days into her stay, she revealed that she was pregnant and that her boyfriend had told her to get an abortion or he would break up with her. He has even given her the money to get it done. Before we even had time to react, she called her boyfriend, weeping, and told him, “The Heart’s Home girls know about the baby now, and they won’t let me do that. See, now I can’t do that.” She then told us that she really needs our support to continue to make this choice. Even with as frustratingly immature and deceitful as she continued to be at times during her stay with us, I am deeply moved by her desire to follow her conscience and do what is right— to try to keep her baby. Especially in the face of opposition from her boyfriend and her family.
This road is not going to be easy by any stretch, but I do believe that with a tremendous amount of prayer, this will be a graced opportunity for her to grow up and learn to put another at the center of her life: to love. In this week together, we’ve already been floored several times by her incredible growth in maturity and concern for the other— from surprising us by doing all our laundry one afternoon, to volunteering to make us dinner one night and really putting all her effort into it. For a girl as broken as she is— told by her own mother from the time she was a baby that she was unloved and unlovable— these truly are small miracles. I think she’s as unsure of God’s love for her as she is unsure of her own capacity to love. It’s incredibly beautiful to walk with her, ever so slowly and stumblingly, and see her faith grow in both of these areas. I really admire her, and I stand in awe of God’s ability to write straight with the crooked lines we give Him. Thank you from all of us for spiritually adopting her and her baby.”